When you no longer split your flow of energy with contradictory thought you will know your true power.
Most rarely align with their true power, because it seems illogical to them that there is power in relaxation, in letting go, or in love or joy or bliss. Most people do not understand that their true power lies in releasing resistance—which is the only obstacle to their true power.
I’ve never really been a fan of discipline. You could even go so far as to say that I lack discipline and you would be right.
I am a freedom-loving person and discipline, with its attendant off-shoots of hard work, will-power, and suffering, flies in the face of my cherished ideal. To me, these ideas connote images of suffering and bondage, (albeit with triumphant endings in some cases).
There are many arguments that favour discipline (and the enduring of pain and suffering in the pursuit of this ideal). These range from their being inherent to the human condition, to their character-building effects. I don’t wish to make light or belittle any of these things. In fact, I can honestly put my hand up and say that yes, I once believed in these things and that yes, I have practiced some of them and felt their effects in the past. But I have moved on from all that now.
I no longer see any merit in suffering. To my mind, suffering merely creates more suffering. I no longer believe that you need to suffer in order to create something good or to contribute to this world in a meaningful way. I think you can contribute just as much to this world by being chilled-out, laid back and efficient as you can by gritting your teeth and grunting and straining your way through life.
Time with my daughter is far more precious to me than receiving social approval. I don’t care for being seen as ‘hard working’ or for receiving any other hollow and empty badge of honour.
I don’t see the point in being able to say: “Look at me! look at how much I suffered and deprived myself! I went through hell for so many years and now, just before I die, I finally made it.” if the choice of saying “Look at me! Look at how happy I am? Look at all the wonderful things I lived through and experienced and look at how much I enjoyed every day of my life!” exists. I know which path I would prefer and I only speak for myself. I rest happy in the knowledge that others are free to choose differently for themselves.
I have come to value happiness and freedom over all things now. And I am intent on taking the path of least resistance to creating and experiencing all that I love and desire.
I now choose to believe that my thoughts, beliefs and feelings create my reality and my experience of it. I like this idea because it is supportive of my love of freedom and it tells me that I am free to create any reality I want and to change things at any time. This idea feels good. It feels empowering.
However, in recent times, I have become more and more aware of what seems to be an inability on my part to bring about certain desired changes in my reality. Things have come to a head these past few days.
I have searched for the answer to my question and it seems to be this: while it is true that my thoughts and feelings have creative power and that I do create my own reality and experience of it, this requires that I actively choose to think the thoughts that support the kind of reality that I want to create. I can’t think of unwanted things for most of my waking hours and, in the process, create the things that I do want!
Alas, it is easy for me to observe ‘What Is‘ and to give my time, energy and attention to it. As a result, I have ended up creating more of ‘What Is’. Sure things change–we live in a Universe where nothing stands still. But things have just been changing into the same old thing, over and over again. It couldn’t be any other way, because this is what I have been doing with my thoughts and so, this is all that can be reflected back to me. So it’s been ‘Groundhog Day’ every day.
Passively observing circumstances is not deliberate creation. If I want things to change, then I have to use my imagination to create images of how I want things to be and I have to do this consistently. I have to think and feel in terms of my preferred reality more often than I think and feel in my ‘What Is’ / observable reality. Only then can things change.
So it turns out that in order to experience the ease and freedom I desire, I need to be disciplined in my thoughts.
This paradox confounded me for a while. The path of being disciplined in my thoughts seems an unlikely solution given my inability to make any decent headway in some of the subjects that are important to me right now. I have come to understand that since I lack discipline in my thinking, I would have to resort to using discipline in terms of action to bring about the changes I want. The action becomes a crutch that I have to use in order to compensate for my sloppy thinking. Surprisingly, this route, as unpalatable as it seems, appears to be the path of least resistance for me. So I’m going with it–at least for now.
Let me take a minute here to argue for my limitations: I have had nearly 40 years of thought momentum in this (sloppy) direction. I might be able to diffuse it in time, but I don’t want to wait any longer. I need to see change happening sooner rather than later. I’m sick of waiting for me to ‘get it’. So now it is time to man up and get on with it. Sigh.
Hopefully, in time, even through this less-than-exciting path, I will have created a reality which is more according to what I desire right now. When this happens, I can observe ‘What Is‘ all day every day and hopefully, it will help me create more of the same. But the difference will be that when I get to that point, I will need to rely less on action and more on thought to sustain that preferred set of circumstances.
Well, either that or I will have some sort of earth-shattering epiphany sometime soon! I’m good with either of these scenarios for now and I remain hopeful.
And in time, I hope that things will look less like the picture above and more like this:
If you have any ideas, comments or suggestions that can help me out, I’d love to know. Please write in or comment below.
My heartfelt appreciation to Esther Hicks and the Teachings of Abraham for the clarity and for many of the ideas presented above.